Demi Lovato is such a fighter. She conquered the National Anthem at this year’s Super Bowl and performed the hell out of “Anyone” at the 2020 Grammys. Now her first single “I Love Me” is finally here. It’s her first single since 2017. Lovato sat down with Ellen DeGeneres to discuss new music, and, more importantly, all the progress she has made since her relapse in 2018.
“What was it that day when you’re six years sober, what happens that you just decide to throw it all away?” DeGeneres asked.
Lovato took a deep breath before getting deep about her issues and said, “I have to preface it with, I got sober at 19. I got sober at an age where I wasn’t even legally allowed to drink. And I got the help that I needed at the time. And I took on the approach of a one-size-fits-all solution, which is sobriety, just sobriety.”
The 27-year-old singer said that being sober at such a young age worked for many years, but other things started to build up. The pressures that come with being a celebrity started to pile up.
“Just little things like that led me to being really, really unhappy. My bulimia got really bad and I asked for help and I didn’t receive the help that I needed,” she said. “And so I was stuck in this unhappy position and here I am sober and I’m thinking to myself, ‘I’m six years sober, but I’m miserable. I’m even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober? So I drank, and that night I went to a party and there was other stuff there, and it was only three months before I ended up in the hospital with an OD.”
Lovato added that relapsing isn’t ideal but it’s part of being human, and that includes the aspiration to want to get better.
“If you do go through this, you yourself can get through it,” she said. “You can get to the other side and it may be bumpy, but you are a 10 out of 10. Don’t forget it. And, as long as you take the responsibility, you can move past it and learn to love yourself that way that you deserve to be loved.”
Lovato posted on Instagram that doing the interview was a cathartic experience and that she was happy to be able to free herself of everything that happened that critical night.
“Today I got to see my dear friend @theellenshow. I was lucky enough to sit with her and share my story from over the past year and a half. I was so emotional, I cried when I walked off stage. Thank you Ellen for providing me a platform to speak my truth. Love you always and I’m so grateful for our chat today 💕 The journey continues Friday.”
Here’s her interview below.